So Many Questions

Hi Again Everyone or Whoever Reads This Blog,
So I went to Church today. The youth in my ward sang a special number called "Sisters in Zion/ We'll Bring the World His Truth." Every good Mormon should know it right? Anyways, Church was good. In Sunday School we talked about all the things we had to be thankful for rather than the last lesson in the Gospel Principles book, "Exaltation". So many different things came to my head, that I have to be thankful for. So anyways, the main reason I'm blogging tonight is because of my meeting with the bishop after Church. This had been something I had been looking forward to for about two weeks, since the last two times I was asked to meet with the Bishop I couldn't due to work. I thought it was going to be something good for me, since I've done everything that has been asked of me since confessing to the Bishop. So, I go in there after Church and he asks me the usual things, "How am I doing? How is work?" etc. Then, he basically drops a bomb in my lap, and says that someone in the ward has a room they would like to have rented out. Its 450 per month, yay. Not the answer I was expecting. So expectations shot down. I atleast expected a calling or something along the lines of that I was going to be able to say the Sacrament prayers again. No such luck for me. (I'm trying to be patient Lord!) I'm a bit frustrated and trying not to be too angry about what happened. I just expected more is all. My only question right now is, "Where are all those people that are moving forward as good, upstanding members of the Church..." even though they struggle with SSA. I feel right now like the Church is sending double messages to people with this problem. On one hand, they are saying that we are allowed to move forward and have activity in the Church, have callings, attend the temple, etc. but on the other hand, its like they are scared or something. I know that I am keeping myself worthy to enter the temple again and make the covenants I need to make. I attend my Church meetings, I pay a full tithe, I'm honest with my fellow man. I am no longer involved in anything that would keep me out of the temple, I take the sacrament worthily. At the same time its like the lower levels of the leadership do not believe what I am saying and will not allow me that chance. This frustrates me. This is double messages!!! I'm trying to be patient with the Lord and am trying to realize that waiting however long I have to wait will not be that long compared to the eternities. I love the Lord so much and I have a testimony of the Church, and of the Prophet Joseph Smith. My only question is, am I doomed to always be alone? Will I be allowed inside the temple anytime in the near future. So far my bishop has not given me any time line as to when I will be able to. He knows that my niece who is turning eight in January is wanting me to baptize her. Well, obviously I can't do that if I don't have either a Temple Recommend or a Recommend to Perform an Ordinance. I feel like every time I walk into the bishops office, he just sort of glazes over the subject and doesn't really want to talk about it. According to the scriptures we are supposed to go to him when we have problems that we need help with. What happened to the scripture that talks about bearing one anothers burdens? Standing with those that are in need of comfort, that sort of thing? Is that just something thats supposed to sound good? Or did Joseph Smith actually receive that scripture because thats what Heavenly Father's children are supposed to do to help thier fellow man. I suppose I will just have to keep exercising faith, even though its freakin hard!